ME NO SPG AH!!!

last nite i visited a gay bar with a drag puppet show.... who hosts a bingo game in the bar... giving out free drinks n cheap toys as prizes.... then i met up with a photograpger friend i worked with three years ago in nyc when i first came...... funny how time flies..... we went wif his friend greg to this brazilian bar/club...... expecting to fond some hott brazilian chicks but the ppl there were anything but brazilian.... not a stunning crowd either.... more like your neighbours looking kind of ppl.....
greg sells tools n boast of sell 40 000 dollars worth of sales in a week.... apparently he is always working n hardly comes out...
but he is a guud guy....we got two magaritas then moved on to another club wif no signboard..... much better... music was diverse from bob marley to eighties pop to african dance...more alcohol... a tranny came and joined us...she is very pretty n slim n well dressed, perfect hair, perfect makeup...she looks chic....n she is from LA she claims....but i noticed bits of hair on her chest.....this i dun understand!!!??? another con about partying in nyc is u can't smoke in the bar... u have to go out n smoke on da cold streets without yr alcohol....so fucked up... we partied till the club closes at three.... then drove to 8th ave for some hotdogs at Manhatten's famous Grey's papaya.....
by the time i was home, it was about 5am and freezing cold... i miss being able to go home after a night of partying in only my tshirt or leather harness in singapore:-(
by da time i crashed into my bed , it was almost 7am... dun ask me what i did... i don't know... but i m so guud at letting time pass without knowing what i had done..... comes from being an only child when i was spending time in my own world or tots i suppose.....
woke up at 4pm this afternoon n found a beautiful sms from my babe in singapore......
then i made some sandwiches n a cup noodle n ate it on da fireescape outside my bedroom window while looking at the manhatten skyline infront of me...... I M IN NYC!!!!... FINALLY!!!!... after all these time:-(...... i saw a runaway silver ballon in the distant sky drifting...... somehow i had an affinity to it.... i feel like the balloon..... lost in the vast skies.... separated from da little boy's hand......
this separation between me n my love seems so unatural cos obviously we both wanna be together......
why do ppl do these kind of things to themselves????
why m i doing it???
no answer there......
another day is almost gone and i should feel another day closer to my babe but i don't.....
i need him baad!

whilst i enjoyed nyc n da party last night, i had to consciously make an effort to enjoy it.... unlike da happiness dat flows thru us so ever easily when we r together.....

i see a plane flying over da manhatten skyline n i made a silent wish that i would be on one of those planes flying back to my babe soon......

got two dogs in da appt i m living in ..... i was asked to take them out for a pee before i leave the houselater..... m looking forward to it but i hope they don't poo... cos then i will have to pick up after them!!!!! EEEEWWWW!!!!

sat evening.... n i m still on my balcony, typing this blog.... i have no idea what i wanna do tonight..... nothing to look forward to......wish i m in singapore......